When things collide, they fall apart. they clash and mix and pile up inside your gut as if they situated themselves in their new homes. ensconced within the headquarters of your mind so deeply rooted between your thoughts that you can't find a way to detach or unwrap yourself from it. from them. streams of consciousness turn into those things and those things turn into nightmares that were originally supposed to be dreams. and i cant. it's so suffocating. all i know is what i don't know. is what i can't. all i know is what other things can i? i can? i'm capable of? and comparisons. and slowly seep into this black hole of plain madness. madness. madness.
the future? the past? what have i done? what will i do? what will others do, what have others done. this sick mindset haunting my brains out. everyone seems to be going through it just fine. yet i know we all have the same insecurities, confusions, disappointments. it all differs in shapes forms and sizes and ways. what's fine may not be fine. what's ok may not be ok.
but what i know is you have to learnt to wrap yourself and your whole being and soul and heart and thoughts that aren't contaminated and congested by those things go. go. go. and breathe. and breathe. and continue. just turn the worst into a form of medication that feeds your better thoughts and allows them to grow, that makes life brighter. each step of the way. use those stepping stones and baby steps to get there. it won't be easy. but pay attention and indulge in the little things life grants that makes you feel the teeny bit better. that makes you feel a tad more alive. because believe it or not. one day, you'll get there. one day, we'll all get there.
